with us..

my excuse was my long time starvation for attention. now i'm buried in guilty joy, doubts and confusion. Seems like life never stops its game. Seems like i'm always a kid that gets lost every time encountered with new feelings & relationships.

Compared with others, this is surprisingly easy, yet most outrageous and unacceptable. The safety and comfort comes from knowing everything there is to know. On the other hand, desperation from an obviously unchangeable situation leaves me out of breath sometimes. Look at me all happy - far from the truth. But fortunately i can still see my glass half full, not half empty.

Long way to salvation i cry. still in hopes that this relationship will open my eyes to new horizons of love... and push me to change.

short hair, anyone?

Given my new hair cut since August and the 2008 trend of various types of short hair, let's see what is out there..

Katie's sassy bob goes well with sophisticated make-up to give a mature yet youthful look. Careful with the bang if you try this style. You might end up looking like a kindergarten kid with a short bang.
You've gotta give Vic credits for taking the lead in having edgy short hairs since last year. Along with her husband, Vic's blond reinvented bob rocked the W issue.

Rihanna's hair seems to get shorter and shorter every time I see a new video of her, probably because short hair works way better for her face structure. "She pulls off a great execution of an asymmetrical bob for more ethnic textured hair." (thecuttingchair.com)

These short cuts look great; however, I only recommend short hairs for people who either have perfect hair (thick & smooth) or love to use hair products, since they're harder to style and a straight short bob day after day is just boring.

cheers to new adventures...

P is leaving to Aus again. I never had a chance to see her off so I'm planning to do it this time.. the way that it was supposed to be done between us for years - a hand-written letter, a small gift, and waving hands at the airport until the gate closes. It's wonderful that she has this chance to depart to another adventure of finding herself, what she could become and embrace her future. The truth is, it's been 10 years and we haven't changed much. We are still as confused about ourselves and our future as we were in junior high - however just keep fighting with a belief that the best is yet to come. In the meantime, we're taking advantage of our opportunities to progress, change, and learn..