cheers to new adventures...

P is leaving to Aus again. I never had a chance to see her off so I'm planning to do it this time.. the way that it was supposed to be done between us for years - a hand-written letter, a small gift, and waving hands at the airport until the gate closes. It's wonderful that she has this chance to depart to another adventure of finding herself, what she could become and embrace her future. The truth is, it's been 10 years and we haven't changed much. We are still as confused about ourselves and our future as we were in junior high - however just keep fighting with a belief that the best is yet to come. In the meantime, we're taking advantage of our opportunities to progress, change, and learn..

music

4 new albums that are ranking top on my ipod, respectively:

Original Release Date: April 8, 2008

Label: J-Records
Genre: Contemporary R&B, Pop

Original Release Date: September 23, 2008
Label: Interscope Records
Genre: Dance Pop, R&B


Original Release Date: October 7, 2008

Label: Sony
Genre: Soul, Gospel, Dance Pop

Original Release Date: May 27, 2008
Label: Jive
Genre: R&B, Hip-hop & Rap

Energy

I was sitting there by myself. It was so quiet that it made me stop and look around for a moment. Nobody was there except me and Leona Lewis singing on my ipod. And in that one little moment, I wondered why I was here, doing these things, so tirelessly. I even felt all the "what-if" thoughts running thru my head, and I never like those non-sense "what-if" wondering.

Sometimes it's awakening to have those sudden realization of life dissatisfaction that make you wonder about everything you do - what's the point of trying so hard at everything if you're not happy? And you just want to lay down and die.

In this past week, or the past 3 days exactly, I felt like all of my energy was stripped off. Probably because of my continuous lack of sleep + lack of exercise + lack of... It was pretty normal to be stressed out and overloaded with work, but it's another thing to be depressed. Shopping doesn't help anymore, and loneliness is palpable. And when the worst comes, you always get back to basics.. She is back with a new single called "Womanizer" - not that this new song can pull me out of depression, but watching one of her old amazing live performances can always give me the boost.