I was sitting there by myself. It was so quiet that it made me stop and look around for a moment. Nobody was there except me and Leona Lewis singing on my ipod. And in that one little moment, I wondered why I was here, doing these things, so tirelessly. I even felt all the "what-if" thoughts running thru my head, and I never like those non-sense "what-if" wondering.
Sometimes it's awakening to have those sudden realization of life dissatisfaction that make you wonder about everything you do - what's the point of trying so hard at everything if you're not happy? And you just want to lay down and die.
In this past week, or the past 3 days exactly, I felt like all of my energy was stripped off. Probably because of my continuous lack of sleep + lack of exercise + lack of... It was pretty normal to be stressed out and overloaded with work, but it's another thing to be depressed. Shopping doesn't help anymore, and loneliness is palpable. And when the worst comes, you always get back to basics.. She is back with a new single called "Womanizer" - not that this new song can pull me out of depression, but watching one of her old amazing live performances can always give me the boost.
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