now

I miss the States sometimes. As a night owl, how could you not love the available options of grocery shopping, renting movies, & getting coffee at 11:30pm. Still, I can't imagine going back there to live. At one point, it was a party-nonstop relationship-unstable friends-and-dramas-surrounded kinda life. Time has passed. "This ship has sailed :P." Wonder why I'm not interested in going out... or taking pictures with friends in coffee shops, looking pretty in meaningless photos. Now all I care about is work (and you*), a little too much sometimes, but that's ok. Still trying to draw a career map for myself.. and figure out where to go from here.. and it's getting quite interesting. I never felt so productive before. 9 months of full-time working helped me realize that I can do so much for people, and at the same time learn so much from them. Time is of the essence.. and it shouldn't be wasted.

*You, my hero. I'm sick of being tied to you, sick of pretension, sick of being afraid of reality, and sick of your escaladed closeness and attention, sick of being understood and being seen through. But without you and this rediculous distress, what is life for?

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dạo này tuần nào cũng có hoa :x I rarely like yellow flowers, but these are just lovely :x it is so true that "there is no ugly color, only ugly color combination" :)

Circus

Rain just made a hit-and-run to the city. The weekend, which seems to be more stressful than weekdays lately, is even more upsetting with the heavy sudden rain. My sickness locked me in bed for the whole Saturday. It has turned to be like a ritual after every exhausting workweek when my feet become as heavy as my heart.

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I've been falling asleep on the Rachel Maddow show podcast, and probably text messages, too. Not because they're not interesting but because they're such comfortable supper.

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It has always been on my mind - the dreaded question of what occupation fits me best. Until now, my guess is sales or product. Sometimes, when looking at Marketing people, designers & writers, I wish I could be one of them - free my mind and fly with creativity and emotions. However, logics and practicality always seem to win eventually. Maybe I can find harmony in HR... who knows..

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Circus has leaked. The album sounds amazing. B is gonna rock it with a big tour that combines both the Blackout & Circus albums. The peaks of Circus MV look smokin' hot!!!

the other life

I met up with the gals the other day. After dinner, we went for drinks. We all did, except only 1 of us actually drank something. Anyways, it was good to catch up with them and take a walk down the memory lane of my previous life. It feels good to be close to friends. I kinda lost that feeling over the recent months because of... whatever BS i got in my head. Really. No excuse is good enough for losing touch with people.

I just recognized winter in this 2-season-dry-or-rain city on Wednesday night.. when i was going home around 11-ish. The wind was winter-cold. Even today on my way to work, the sky has never looked so soft at noon. Rain has stopped for good now I hope. I heart the holiday season here. Full of warmth. My first holiday season where I'm full-time working so I'm planning to gift all my family.

Just started another dance class today. Hope to keep it up for long this time. A reason to get me out of the office early and a good way to be more physically active.

Shopping? Haven't done much of that lately due to the Economic downturn (naviworks inside joke). However, will go browsing shoes this weekend. Needing more pumps. After months of struggling with sandals, I'm officially over them now.

$43 Charles & Keith

with us..

my excuse was my long time starvation for attention. now i'm buried in guilty joy, doubts and confusion. Seems like life never stops its game. Seems like i'm always a kid that gets lost every time encountered with new feelings & relationships.

Compared with others, this is surprisingly easy, yet most outrageous and unacceptable. The safety and comfort comes from knowing everything there is to know. On the other hand, desperation from an obviously unchangeable situation leaves me out of breath sometimes. Look at me all happy - far from the truth. But fortunately i can still see my glass half full, not half empty.

Long way to salvation i cry. still in hopes that this relationship will open my eyes to new horizons of love... and push me to change.

short hair, anyone?

Given my new hair cut since August and the 2008 trend of various types of short hair, let's see what is out there..

Katie's sassy bob goes well with sophisticated make-up to give a mature yet youthful look. Careful with the bang if you try this style. You might end up looking like a kindergarten kid with a short bang.
You've gotta give Vic credits for taking the lead in having edgy short hairs since last year. Along with her husband, Vic's blond reinvented bob rocked the W issue.

Rihanna's hair seems to get shorter and shorter every time I see a new video of her, probably because short hair works way better for her face structure. "She pulls off a great execution of an asymmetrical bob for more ethnic textured hair." (thecuttingchair.com)

These short cuts look great; however, I only recommend short hairs for people who either have perfect hair (thick & smooth) or love to use hair products, since they're harder to style and a straight short bob day after day is just boring.