my excuse was my long time starvation for attention. now i'm buried in guilty joy, doubts and confusion. Seems like life never stops its game. Seems like i'm always a kid that gets lost every time encountered with new feelings & relationships.
Compared with others, this is surprisingly easy, yet most outrageous and unacceptable. The safety and comfort comes from knowing everything there is to know. On the other hand, desperation from an obviously unchangeable situation leaves me out of breath sometimes. Look at me all happy - far from the truth. But fortunately i can still see my glass half full, not half empty.
Long way to salvation i cry. still in hopes that this relationship will open my eyes to new horizons of love... and push me to change.
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